Although Mr Grey’s feeling is a factor in making this decision, I’ve been contemplating about quitting this “lifestyle” since my experience with Stalker SD. I know that, ultimately, my goal is to be in a healthy and happy romantic relationship. First step to achieving that is for me to stop living in the fantasy world of Sugarland and hopefully, put this experience behind me.
For most people, there is very little difference between being an Escort or a Sugar Baby. It’s definitely easier to say “fuck those judgemental people” but reality is, people will still find it difficult to understand or accept anything that isn’t the society’s norm. How many would be accepting of the fact that their partner is/was a Sugar Baby? Isn’t this the reason that most Sugar Babies hide this lifestyle from whomever they’re dating?
Statistically speaking, it’s very probable that this will be a deal breaker for the next guy I’m dating. I don’t intend to deceive him by failing to mention my past but this is the grey area where honesty is not the best policy. I don’t want him to feel like he’s one of my former SDs every time he buys me dinner or a gift. I don’t want him to think that my affection can be bought and that I’m with him primarily because he’s a good (financial) provider.
So, this is where I kill off the heroine of Melbourne Sugar.
I’d like to thank all my readers for following the rather short-lived adventures of Melbourne Sugar. I will continue to blog — under a new pseudonym and on a completely unrelated topic — because I appreciate the therapeutic effect of jotting down my thoughts.
p.s. Maybe some of you are wondering what happened to Mr Grey and I. There will never be “Us” but he still plays major roles in my life at the moment: being a friend, a mentor, and sometimes, a lover.